A lil tug at my heart..ooOO

Ive plenty of work to do. Aside from actually repeating that in my head I haven't come around to doing something or anything aside from an occasional finger lifting, about it because I'm overcome by this enormous feeling of fatigue, guilt and just sheer laziness. I'm sick and tired of attempting to attempt to change the predispositions of my life. My life used to be so easy to administer. I woke up, I did enough work to pull through the day and make everyone happy and then when the day drew to a close I closed shop and went to bed contented. Alas the present case doesn't quite fit the bill. Plenty of work and administration is required to maintain the extravagant lifestyle I currently live by. And in my bid to sustain it I have been not short of shortcomings which are not all that short in size. Not a very good thing if you look at it from an individuals perspective. But it all gets a tad wee bit more complicated when your work is inter-connected with other people. Mind you that they don't have to be directly linked to it just associated by sheer nosiness. So this creates an expectation. One that needs to be fulfilled and fulfillment that needs to be meet up with. Chaos ensues when all these things don't come together in unison and order. A whole lot of chaos in my head leading to the fatigue, guilt and laziness to deal with the present problem and a lame attempt of avoidance instead. HmMmMmMmMmMmMmMm what to do what to do what to do>>>?

“When we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago” Friedrich Nietzsche quotes

"If all else fails, immortality can always be assured by spectacular error." John Kenneth Galbraith, Money: Whence It Came, Where It Went

"Maybe this world is another planet's hell."  Aldous Huxley

"The surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that it has never tried to contact us."  Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes

'It's always darkest before the dawn.  So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it." Author Unknown

Semester-finale'

“This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning.”

 Winston Churchill quotes


Its that time of the year again when the semester draws closer to an end and its time to evaluate. It feels like it just began and its already coming to a close-well at least not for a month or so but still feels damn close. What have I learned, not much considering my retaining power is like dirt low. Which brings me closer to the question of just what is it that I want considering what I want is between the lines. Somehow Ive always thought that if you pretend hard enough not to have a problem then it simply gets swept down the carpet lying there with the rest of the mess. While out of sight gets it out of mind it doesn't really fix the problem. So what to do then-do. What I'm supposed to do is take the bull by its horns. It sucks indefinitely, but it brings a resolution which means an end rather then a merry-go round.
Right now I wanna focus on the good things and hopefully let them pay of. Work work work.

“Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.”

Mary Anne Radmacher quotes